My life is a changing…..
I don’t know how to start this. I haven’t written but 2 posts and I found myself once again putting something I was enjoying on the back burner. My husband and kids came first. Well, that’s changing.
I’ve decided to end my marriage. Wow, that was hard to write. I have thought about it from time to time. Just never thought I could say the words. I was unhappy but didn’t want to hurt my husband or my kids. It didn’t matter what I was feeling, they came first.
Then it hit me. I can’t be a good mom and wife if I’m not honest with myself. I had to take a hard look at a lot of things. I’ve really thought long and hard about what I needed, what I was missing. I found I was missing me. The old me that was fun and easygoing. The me that was happy. I lost a lot of myself along the way.
I’m not going to go into all the details of why my marriage is ending. Just that it is. (My kids may read this someday.) It’s hard to think about ending it with someone you’ve had 20 years with. We have 3 great kids. A history together. A life.
I’m scared out of my mind to be doing this. I haven’t worked our entire marriage. I have no skills and no degree. But I do have strength & I have courage. I have a stubborn streak a mile wide.
I know this will be hard. It will be a huge change in my lifestyle. My kids will have a lot of adjustments. I’m not thinking it’s going to be a walk in the park. I know I will have to dig deep and find that girl who can do this.
I will have to get a job. I will have move back to Michigan to be closer to family. I will be on my own (w/ 3 kids) for the first time in my life. That’s a very frightening thing. It’s makes me shiver in fright but also giddy with anticipation.
*hugs*
Good luck, ma’am. You ARE strong enough to do this, and you are definitely strong enough to make it all work out just fine in the end.
Wow. I wish I had something really profound that could help you through this, but all I have to offer is my good thoughts and support. I’ve not gone through this myself, but I imagine it is a hard thing to do. Good on you for remembering *you* though.
(((hugs))) I was in the same situation 2 years ago with my high school sweetheart married 11yrs 2 kids. I was a stay at home mom. I’m not gonna pussyfoot but this will be hard. Your kids, friends & family members are gonna be upset and question you. Hang tough! You deserve to be happy! You deserve to feel loved & feel important! Blogging will help & I’m hear to listen!
I’m 6 months out of a decade long marriage. 4 kids and it is very, very hard. Good luck.
Sorry to hear about the end of your marriage, but if it is a step in the direction of happier you and happier kids, then good for you. You’ll be fine. I’m sure some days will be harder than others, but you can do it.
((Hugs)) I just wanted to let u know u are in my thoughts! I am in MI too.. If u needs a friend just follow me on twitter krislynn75